....recap of the last few months....

ok.. here's the deal.. I had almost decided I was going to quit doing my blog, partly because life just seems to keep getting busier all the time, but also because I did not know how I was going to start posting again after what my family went thru in November. My last post was Nov 14th, I did not realize that was the date until I finally got on to ck out what all my friends and family had posted. that made it a bit harder even... I'm just going to give a recap and possibly go from there.. In October we had Paige in the hospital, she started out with a funny sore on her head and then it got bigger, we went to the Dr. he started her on an iv antibiotic. two nights later we had her at McKay Dee. She ended up with MRSA which for those of you who don't know it is a resistant form of staph infection she had her whole left side swell up and close her eye and then it moved to her right side, for a while she could not see at all!! It was very scary, in the end the dr's ended up givning her 5 different IV antibiotics and 3 different oral ones, she was at McKay for 3 days and then had to go to our local ER for the next week daily for IV antibiotics.. She is better now, we just have to be careful because I have been told that once you have MRSA you have a high rate of getting it again!!!!   We had Paige home for about two weeks when our next event happened.. On November 14th 2010 my little brother died... I don't really think I can go into very many details because it is still a very close to my heart subject but I had talked to him only about an hour before he commited suicide... Never was that something I thought I would have to deal with in my life. He was a funny and fun person to be around, he loved his neices and nephews so much and was like a little kid himself. He always made sure I knew how much he loved me and made me feel like a very loved sister!! It has been a very hard thing for our family and there isn't a day that goes by I don't miss him and think about different things he did and said to me.. I love him so much... This is possibly why I haven't blogged since, because I think I knew I wanted to tell this but wasnt sure I could or should, for those of you who have ever lost a sibling maybe you will have an understanding of how hard it is.. He for sure had his problems and things he needed to deal with but I never thought his life would end so soon or sadly... I will miss him forever.. I only can hope and believe he is at peace and happy now.......                           S0the holidays came and went, the kids had a great time and got fun stuff it felt like I had a cloud over me the entire time, but made it through and I know we will remember many things good and sad from this holiday... January came and found us in the hospital with Kody after we tried to go snowmobiling, two catscans, ultrasound and two xrays later, they decided his small intestine had quit working and it affected his small bowel... two weeks later he finally started feeling better.. in between we had basketball games and a few other minor sicknesses that come with having kids in school and me working at a dental office...  but I am hoping for a better rest of 2011 for me and my family... and hoping now that I have blogged about this I can start again without many tears and memories.. I have to say I have been so thankful and very blessed with so many people friends and family for their compassion and concern through the trials we have been thru the last couple of months. I have been so amazed with the love and compassion we have recieved from so many... I refer back many times a day sometimes to the entry.. "He never said it would be easy, He only said it would be worth it" and have to believe we knew we would go thru many trials in life, and they will make us into the people we will become!!!!!